February

Cupid's arrows and bittersweet sorrows

01

Sprinkles on Ice Cream

To miss the feeling

of loving

of having

of a routine

is painfully beautiful

and human

I rather feel all

the pain

the joy

the push

all over again

if it means I can miss

something that made me

me

I would do it all again

to remember the girl

who fell in love

02

Love and Hate are Friends

At what point will you

stop seeing me as

an equal

if you don’t see those

like me

as equal?

At what point will we

draw a line

for love given

to friends and family

that openly hate

others like ourselves?

At what point will they

stop

loving

all together,

and just

hate?

03

Romance in F Minor

Symphonies are strings

woodwinds percussions

brasses

With some occasional

random sneezes and

cadenza of ringtones

Love is a symphony

composed by

a random girl who

majored in science

that occasionally sneezes

and play cadenzas

04

Umbrella

To think I would find

someone that is willing

to hold my hand

in the rain while holding

an umbrella in the other

05

Chocolate on Cake

Snow dusting over a cemetery

makes tombstones look like

chocolate ornaments

the ones you used to

top my birthday cake

How incredible is snow

that it can disguise something

already dead into a

cake with choclates

of all different flavors

I do hope you got

the ones I like

and not the ones that

taste like dirt

06

Compass

After losing myself

in someone else

I realized I would never

love anyone else

more than I would love

Myself

07

Mixing Bowl

If starting from scratch

can make it better

then I will dump the

whole thing out

to make it perfect

just for you

just like you

08

Coffee

The aftertaste

lingers

a little too strongly

as if it’s saying

finally you noticed me.

Until you take in a little

too much of it

the effects lost

the taste still lingers

as you crave for more

of that feeling it used to give.

Where did you go?

I can taste you

but why can’t I feel you

anymore?

Why don’t you leave

so I can forget the way

you taste?

09

Cat Lady

I’ve come to the conclusion

that if I ended up

a single cat lady

with all the love I have

available to give

to strangers, friends, and kittens

creating a family I know

will never make me wish

I never married into

that will not be the worst thing

Even if my love isn’t concentrated on

a single person

Even if my love is concentrated on

a cat

or two

or three

that will be enough

I’ve come to the conclusion

that if I ended up

a single cat lady

with all the love I have

available to give

to strangers, friends, and kittens

creating a family I know

will never make me wish

I never married into

that will not be the worst thing

Even if my love isn’t concentrated on

a single person

Even if my love is concentrated on

a cat

or two

or three

that will be enough

10

Wildflowers

In the field by my house

the one I walk through

everyday after school

the one where I harvested

little tadpoles and waited

till they turned into frogs

just like the life cycles they

taught us in class

So much life in a ditch

where a field of wildflowers grew

like love

that would soon be destroyed

by the wildfires

of hate

Gather the wildflowers

and let them spread

before the fire comes

Gather all the love you can

before they take it away

11

Forget Me Not

How long does it take?

Am I there yet?

What if it never happens?

If I never forget

Will I ever love anyone?

If I never forget

Will I ever remember

anything good

If I never forget

12

The Only Safe Space

I’m willing to give up

my loneliness

for you

13

Don't Scratch the Couch

I think we can choose

No

I know we can

You can train your heart

to stop fluttering

like how you train your cat

to stop scratching the couch

He might still do it when

you’re not looking

but at least you can

pretend to be oblivious

14

Thank You

It’s so strange to be

ashamed

of things that happened

to you

Not because of you

Thank you for embracing

all the things that happened

to and because

Because of you

I know what I am worth

too

15

Countdown to

Tick tok

Another second

Tick tok

Another year

Tick tok

Another moment

without feeling

all the pain

Until the cuckoo clock

decides to chirp

asking me if I

remember

If I needed a

reminder

16

Easy Love

I wonder if love is supposed

To be easy

Easy to feel

To touch

To smell

To know

To write about

Then why can’t I write

More about

Love

Why is it always

Easier

To write about

Pain

17

Past Trends

If obsession is required

the desire for someone

so strong that it overwhelms

the desire for yourself

at times

then maybe I will

never

get that

If possession is

how you define

love

how you must

hold and attach

yourself and lose

yourself

lost in love they say

lost in general I say

18

Chicken or the Egg

What came first

You

Or

Me

I can no longer tell

I can no longer see

I can no longer hear

Myself

In the dozen full of

You

I scramble and bend over- easy

until the sun is up

I’m cooked

19

All I Ever Wanted

To think I would’ve been

Maybe engaged

Maybe married

Most definitely disappointed

Now I am

Happy

20

Book Boyfriend

I fell in love with you

Through pages of a book

All the words blurred the line

Between fiction and not

21

Behind this Door

I want to choose

But I don’t want to be

Wrong

Like what if the choice is

Particularly

Strange

Does that mean I am?

If the choice seems

Obvious

Does that mean I am

Blind?

So many factors

Choices

Doors

Paths

Yet, I will choose you

Every time

I rather be wrong

And go down this road

With you holding my hand

As we open the door

22

Brave

I promise I’ll be brave enough

To try

To live

To leave

23

Monet's Garden

A pair of lovebirds

Serenades in the blizzard

Unaware of the frozen world

Unbothered by the pure white flutters

They’ll freeze together

Proudly

24

Waltz No. 1 "Trust"

One two three

Follow my steps

One two three

Take my hand

One two three

Let me lead

One two three

Eyes on me

One

Two

Three

Let us dance

25

Doll

Dearest girl

So fragile

So pure

So devastatingly beautiful

I hope someone will show you

Just how much

You deserve to be loved

Until then

Don’t break

Don’t let the darkness stain you

Don’t let the sharp words cut

Your devastatingly beautiful

Face

For it’s all you’ll ever have

To show them just how much you’re

Worth

26

Uninspired

Love is sometimes uninspiring

Especially the calm ones

That makes you feel nothing

27

For Meg

I think about how your life

would've turned out

If you decided to give yourself

All that love

that you give

to that little girl instead

28

Medicine

Love was supposed to fix it all

Was it not?

I thought being wanted

would make me want

More

Yet I still want nothing